hope

hope.
what is it,
but a deceiver.

it was so ironic.
for the very person to tell me to have hope.
maybe tomorrow.
not today.
im cynical today.

its so ironic.
how irony strikes you.
when most unexpected.

well, hope just cheats your feelings.
but in pandora's box.
there's only hope left.
the one last gift.
that remains kept.
there's still hope.

maybe tomorrow.
maybe.

so anyway. school was a drag today. mag low scared the shit outta me during cath class. bahhh. then had lit. wrote 2 pages. then handed in with tiffy. lol. she saved me.
amath. geog was a killer. tried so damn hard not to sleep. i didnt! was amazing. but nothing went in. LOL. english was boring. i completed my summaries too.
oh. natalie doesnt want to sit next to me anymore. sigh. am i such an irritant? am swapping places with tiffy then. ohwells. sorry.
emath test after school. it was easy peasy. went for late lunch with tiffy and nat after. tiffy says im missing something in my life.
dont know what.
anyway. i bet my mum didnt go pick my contacts up. GRRRRRRR. i fucking hate my fucking glasses. bah.
youth day celebrations tomorrow. home clothes. then we're going esplanade and clarke quay. will be fun i guess.
WEAR YOUR POLO SHIRTS!
haha.
anyway. if ive snapped at you recently, sorry. lol.
and tiffy! i dont mean to make you feel stupid. lol.
seeyou.

anyway. this is from jo's blog. alittle materialistic. but heck.
Section 1
Hair color? black brown blond
Skin color? tanned is nice.
Eye color? im ok with anything. dont really remember. =\Height? 168-175cm is nice. shorter, sorry. taller, i dont like to feel short. lol.
Six pack? a BIG plus.
Long hair or short? short is nicenice. but long is cool.
Glasses? no thanks. unless you look damn good in them. haha.
Piercings? depends eh.
Eyebrows? er. ok?
Big butt or little? anything. i dont stare at butts. haha.
Chest hair? nope.
buff or skinny? buff is gooood. =)) skinny is ok.
Section 2
Funny or serious? must have both la hor.
Party-hopper or more stay-at-home? party, but know your limits.
Out-going or shy? out going. shy is just. . shy.
smoking/drinking? NO SMOKERS. bad bad bad. drinking is ok, if you're not an alcholic.
Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies? it'll be nice. hahaha. reminds me of someone.
Would he write poetry? erm. its not a necessity.
Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends? no. no. no. no. no.
Section 3
athletic? would be nice.
Can he sing? would be cool.
Play the guitar? at least some instrument yea.
Play piano? major PLUS.
Play the drums? okok. drummers are cool. pianist are better.

anyway. i was thinking about what moses said to me. he says that girls are so hard to understand, and that he wont understand them ever. lol.
so here's something to help.
if the girl says that the guy she likes is someone you know very well, its either you or your best friend.
lol. food for thought.
so more about the guy criteria thingy. i dont really look at the outside, though its nice. im more personality, and what you are. ie, catholics are PLUS. no family problems are PLUS. charisma is PLUS. just afew to mention. who needs to know these anyway.

its the last day of june. birthday of someone tomorrow. hoho.

im going now. miss me. <3